I survived seven years of prison by being useful to my fellow convicted felons. The most valuable thing I had in prison was my worldview void of the lived criminal experience. Now I have a worldview that has evolved and unlocked a new level of retardedness. I am not redeemed. I am not a success story. I haven’t changed. In fact, I’m more sure of why I am the way I am. The good stuff is tainted, and the ugly stayed ugly.
I am addicted to being useful. If no one asks me for help, I’ll ask people who need help. And I don’t care who I help anymore. My work has changed. The people I serve changed. But I just seek purpose. I am built to serve, but my wings are clipped. The stakes changed. But the principle didn’t. It never will. Not for me.
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